Me, Myself, and I

Hi,

     At that very moment, i wanna be nothing, i want the ground to open and take me inside. Yesterday, i spend a day but it was not me! The person was just not me.
     I become drunk generally but the moments i cannot remember are not that much. It was not me that gloomy girl who cannot talk at all. No matter drunk or sober.
   I met some people yesterday and i am so sorry that they think very wrong about me. I dont know whether i can compensate it or no.
   Omg, my life in İstanbul has started so wrong! I dont even eat! I dont fucking eat anything at all. Which made me so easy to get drunk yesterday night! I have to start a normal life here. I hope it will happen as soon as i get a home.
    I hate myself now and i have some reasons to do it!
I think i just should go to my friend who has just returned from perugia. He knows that i am not a stupit drunk girl! I hate to be seemed like a moron drunk girl.
    I am not moron.
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